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[Sep. 1st, 2006|03:57 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  frustrated | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | No Rain//Blind Melon | ] |
I'm thinkin its a sign
I need to start taking better care of the few relationships I have left...
I SWEAR TO GOD I AM GONNA FUCKING GO INSANE IF THIS KID STARTS CRYING ONE MORE TIME. Today was supposed to be a nice day but instead of going out and hanging with friends I end up getting stuck with brat duty till 5:00. SOMEBODY PLEASE SAVE ME BEFORE I STRANGLE HER...
I don't like being alone all the time, but I prefer it to this kid's company.
I kinda want school to start, but I'm also depressed cause of other stuff thats been going on for a few weeks now... |
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| Teenage Wasteland |
[Aug. 29th, 2006|10:39 am] |
wow... haven't used this thing in a while...
everybody is going back to school... I just bought my bio books... $196.75... and the non-lab book weighs a ton too.
woke up randomly at around five to catch a call from Brady...
couldn't fall asleep after... *yawn*
I want some ice cream... and maybe company... the TV in my living room is gone, and I don't wanna sit in my room today so I'm pretty much bored. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 18th, 2006|02:12 am] |
April vacation sucks.
I hate Ozzy.
I haven't taken my meds in a week.
I'm sick and tired of this town and the people who live in it.
I want a grilled cheese sandwich. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 24th, 2006|03:20 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | Free//Martinis | ] |
3 things
Happy Birthday to me!
Costa Rica KICKED ASS!!!!!!!!!
I love animals!!!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 25th, 2006|12:30 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | Let it Be | ] |
heh went to Carolina in my mind last weekend
Life's too short to fuss over the small things everyday
still itching to leave the country |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|12:19 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | Wish You Were Here// Pink Floyd | ] |
Feels good to be loved, ya?
Not sure but I think I made the stupidest decision of my life on Thursday... 01/12/06: REMEMBER THAT, STUPID...
eh.... I'm too tired these days... and I guess I still can't see as clearly as I used to... but, its getting better... now if I could only do sumthing about my inexplicable ability to say the wrong things at the wrong times... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|10:37 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | Hawaiin Roller Coaster Ride (the good one) | ] |
With the New Year come some new changes...
1. I'm saving up to get a place of my own before this summer
2. I'm going to try to be nicer to everyone I know (not that most of them deserve my kindness)
3. I'm getting my license in a few days...
4. I'm gonna start looking into colleges for next year (I'm skipping this year)
5. I'm gonna try harder and give a damn at least three out of the five school days per week
6. .......mghh....... I'm gonna do something bout this goddamn insomnia........
In other related news, I have nothing to do.... yeah, that sucks.... |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 24th, 2005|10:10 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  artistic | ] |
... I dislike Christmas... I just don't like getting gifts from ppl I guess... |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 4th, 2005|12:48 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | Hotel California | ] |
Woot! Florida excursion!
I'm in the sunshine state till wednesday and so far it's been kickass!
As soon as we picked up the rental car, we were driving along when we saw a state trooper in front of us. This guy was stupid enough to pass us then pass the cop who was doing the speed limit. So two seconds after he passes the cop the cop turns on his lights and pulls his ass over. anything that happens in Florida after that is just a bonus. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 27th, 2005|02:25 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| | mellow | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | C'mon | ] |
Woah
Tired as hell, first time in a while that I've stayed up this late...
Grades still suck, so does school, though psych isn't so bad and I am The GOD OF ART (apply dramatic background music) nah more like Messiah really...
I swear to god, if Donny didn't make life so interesting sometimes, I'd strangle his skinny ass so he couldn't pull all the stupid shit he does, like call me twelve times in a row to ask when I would be finished with homework...
I hung out with Dustin and co at a Halo 2 party and got my ass handed to me on a silver platter many times... plus side, wuts her face wearing tight jeans then turning around right next to me... yeah... anyways, I should hang out with ppl from school more often but I'm not exactly a social person. If I don't have something to occupy my hands and time, I usually say something or do something stupid. I'll get around to fixing that later...
Watched The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou... yeah...
wow, I need a job... and a car... and a life... wait... I skate... that counts as a life right??? |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 5th, 2005|12:35 am] |
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btw, if anyone actually took the time to translate the thing at the bottom of the last entry, get a life.... |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 5th, 2005|12:10 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  pensive | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | Iris | ] |
"... I'm beginning to question my sanity..."
"Shut up, you're not crazy."
"Then why am I talking to myself...?"
Hoo boy. I had quite a day indeed. I got slammed to the ground yesterday playing goalie and my right ear and the left side of my neck are still hurtin a bit. On the plus side, I didn't break anything and I was able to remain conscious throughout most of the day!
Everybody seems to be quitting school... its gotten to the point where I'm beginning to wonder if someone up there is trying to tell me sumthing...
It still hurts a lot. And my personality's taken a turn for the worse lately. I'm starting to act worse than I was before... except now I just yell out the things on my mind... You know whats funny... my past is catching up to me seven ways to Sunday, and its knowing things like this that ruin your day; "Esh delki me pect esh nidd avnt ut akte me vavey phurm rhe." |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 23rd, 2005|01:35 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | artistic | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | Kiss Off//The Violent Femmes | ] |
When a "true artist" is creating a work of art, a piece of that artist's soul is put into the artwork. I believe it is the artist's job is to convey his or her unique perspective to others so that others might see the world as he or she does. In order for the artist to truly convey what he or she sees to others, the artist must pour his or her heart and soul into the piece. In doing so, the artist not only creates a window that allows others to see what he or she sees, but he or she creates a mirror that reflects the artist's true feelings. The more experienced the artist is, the less cloudy the window and mirror appear. The stronger the feelings are, the greater the soul of the artist is, the more vivid the piece becomes. And when a "true artist" sees that piece, he or she can feel the pressure of that artist's soul emanating from the piece. To unite the hearts and souls of others together and with that of the artist's for even a brief moment; that is the purpose of art. To be capable of producing something that can accomplish this feat; that is the definition of a "true artist." Incomplete as it may be, that is my philosophy on art. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|10:48 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | weird | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | Gorillaz//19-2000 | ] |
... I got three F's on my progress report...
... hey at least I have my health *cough*...
People have been kinda bitchy the past few days, while I've felt just fine... gotta love those happy pillz... the rain's probably got sumthin to do with it, but maybe its just me... I have been feeling a bit off lately, or at least more off than usual. I've been making extremely racist and rude one liners for a while now... I get a good chuckle outta it but I think ppl are starting to get pissed off at me...
In better news, I feel slightly more at peace with myself and the rest of the world right now... I don't feel like cleaving Mr. Walker's face off with a rusted blade simply because he's a pimple on society's ass...
~ Because we are amorphous, we are afraid. Amorphous, we hold that in reverence.
Thus the blade is swung down.~ |
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| one week later... |
[Oct. 8th, 2005|11:14 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | Wrong Way//Sublime | ] |
ugh...
SATs were long as hell, but I'm pretty sure that I did well
I never realized how many hot girls were actually in my class... what a waste...
I'm gonna be on happy pillz for a while so people noticing a slight change in my personality should not be alarmed...
Got a new lighter the other day and spent hours burning my fingers and making sparks in front of peoples faces... grand total is twenty-seven
I took a look around outside too... everybody fucking smokes now... I got nothing against smokers, (I used to have a thing for girlz who smoked actually... no clue why but it made them look hot... still kinda does) It's kinda pointless. Not only is it bad for you, but it makes all your shit reek too.
Went to Nantucket and got a severe ass thrashing from them... Wes, you suck
Donny's in rehab for three months... heh nice going moron.
I've been noticing a lot of girls with mad short hair too... (short hair= ultra hot) I dunno why, but they remind me of this girl I used to know in sixth or seventh grade... can't remember her name but she was hot... I shoulda said yes. She was a good person.
Saw some kids from my old CCD classes at SATs... damn... this one girl used to be mad skinny and now she probably weighs more than I do... eh she wasn't that hot to begin with though... and Joey Grady... the mini titan on the ice grew more than a few inches... Alex Costa... dude, what the fuck, stop growing you facial hair like me... I feel like shaving...
It hurts a little here and there, but at least my body seems to be in good condition at last...
It's not cool to see people cry, girls or guys... get well soon Shawn...
"You understand so little. A meaningless effort. One who knows nothing can understand nothing. Every light must fade, every heart return to darkness!" |
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[Sep. 29th, 2005|09:45 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | tired | ] |
Costa Rica
I'm all signed up for the Costa Rica trip after my B-day, but unfortunately it cost me all the money I saved for a car and everything I wanted for Christmas or my B-day. Heh, what a sacrifice. I wasn't going to ask for anything this year anyways. On the plus side, I won't feel so bad about not being able to afford to buy presents for my friends and family. I gotta get a decent job soon so I can start saving up for a place to live. I loathe the thought of having to leach off of my parents for another year.
In non related news, I felt like total shit today despite being on the meds for a few days now. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 24th, 2005|11:03 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | depressed | ] |
they had to put the dog down |
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[Sep. 24th, 2005|12:54 am] |
Its funny how up until now I've managed not to think about this, but standing up on that stage thing on the green today made me realize that...
as i was typing this I heard a car hit something then the sound of a dog yelping for a few minutes. It turns out this chocolate lab got hit by the car and limped over towards the woods on Sam Turner. Going back outside, finish the rest later on. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 20th, 2005|09:49 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | irritated | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | Remedy//Seether (still learning how to play) | ] |
Depression, aggression, confession or not
I feel drained, and tomorrow I gotta take the bus... I lost my bus pass... again...
I was gonna get a buzz today but I didn't feel like it and I like having hair.
I started taking meds yesterday for mild depression, and so far all I feel is mildly irritated and destructive. I wanted to beat the shit outta the soccer team today but it wasn't really their fault that the other team schooled us so badly... wait, yes it was. Only seven out of fourteen kids show up to the goddamn practices and they don't put in much of an effort while they're there.
The only thing that helps me relax now is music and drawing. Bass lessons are paying off. I've learned a few songs since I started in July and I picked up tempo and rhythm pretty fast. My art skills are growing at the steady pace of a snail but I can see a difference in skill comparing sketches from four months ago and now. Yay.
I didn't eat anything today...
I WANT RICE AND PEAS |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 15th, 2005|05:20 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | NARF |
| | wtevr | ] |
Wow.
My feet still hurt from the blisters but I'm able to walk OK now.
I'm starting to get the feeling that maybe my room needs to be cleaned. I spilled some Coke on my jeans this morning because I bumped into the soda can rack.
I've only been in school for three weeks but I'm already sick of it...
The rain was nice today... |
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